Monday, December 29, 2008

I then shall live as one who's been forgiven
I'll walk with joy to know my debts are paid
I know my name is clear before my Father
I am His child and I am not afraid
So greatly pardoned, I'll forgive my brother
The law of love I gladly will obey

I then shall live as one who's learned compassion
I've been so loved I'll risk loving, too
I know how fear builds walls instead of bridges
I'll dare to see another's point of view
And when relationships demand commitment
Then I'll be there to care and follow through

Your kingdom come around and through and in me
Your power and glory let them shine through me
Your Hallowed name, oh may I bear with honor
And may Your living Kingdom come in me
The Bread of Life, O' may I share with honor
And may You feed a hungry world through me
Amen, Amen, Amen

hallelujah. i cant imagine his love for me. that though i went astray, he still blesses me.
Abba father, thank you so much.

  Wednesday, June 18, 2008

oh mann. i think i have lost count of how many times i have looked through the old class photos..
i miss the camwhoring with o6S38!!
all the happy faces have been dearly missed.
all the ppl slogging their guts out at work or in camp, lets quickly meet up before SCHOOL starts.. =S

and guess what. i'm already looking forward to next year's 3 month holiday break. =D
HAHA.

  Thursday, May 29, 2008

haha its the holidays and everybody is starting to get bored...
SEEE. it takes SKILL not to feel bored when you are alone, while the whole world is working or studying..
lol.
but i really think im not meant to work. cant find anything despite desperate daily attempts of scouring over the classifieds. i now feel weird if i dont at least take a peek to see if there is a job waiting for me.. -_-
but i guess this really allows me to FULLY depend on God for provision since i have stopped taking allowance since last dec..
anywayy i am REALLY frreee this hols cos i dont even need to volunteer this month cos of the hols, so anybody PLSS tell me when you busy ppl are free KK..

  Saturday, May 10, 2008

the past months have just been blessings after blessings. really, even though i am jobless and nearing penniless-ness, haha, i thank God for the enjoyable time i have been having.
and the wonderful surpirses and answers he have shown me so clearly.
Project Serve was a blast. i hope i have grown in knowledge and also closer to him. and i thank God for my fellow sister-in-christs for being such great examples for me. the joy, enthusiasm, patience, tolerance, love they show indeed remind me of the fruit of the spirit. its been such a long time since i had such great company, esp ppl who encourage me to walk in the Lord. thank God was giving me this ppl to draw me to him. =D

and and i cant believe how good he has been to me. by his grace and mercy, he has answered my prayer of showing me where to go! HHHHALELUJAH!! My God has spoken, and i hope i got this correct, he said.. LET MY LIGHT SHINE IN NTU!! =D
hah. dear Lord, may i be redirected if that is not where u want me to go. thanks for being the light unto my path.

  Tuesday, November 20, 2007

THANK YOU, LORD
Copyright 1972 by Lexicon Music, Inc
(and I) Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,

And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the wayI am
to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.'

Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the wayI am
to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.
'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.

A wonderful song with a beautiful mesage.

 

“Come to the Water, Stand by my side, I know you are thirsty you won’t be denied. I felt every tear drop when in darkness you cried. And I strove to remind you that for those tears I died.”

i pray for aunty lileng that God will sustain her both spiritually and physically. i pray that we will be able to understand whay God's will is, his good and pleasing will. i pray that she will get well soon.
Amen.

 

wah. its been a gazillion years since i came here.
actually, exams are an excuse. im just too lazy. like a PIG.
*snorts*
i go around blog hopping, wondering why on earth people dont update often enough to enertain me.
but guess its the pot calling the kettle black. haha.
anyway, yayy. its the last paper left.
even though 3/4 of the 18 yr olds are already out there wrecking havoc.
poor bio ppl.
BUT nvm. there are more poor tihngs around.
haha. =D
like the smartypants!
ok. im lame and mean and bored.
but like what i told my friend. its HAPPY BOREDOM! =D haha.
it feels so good to not know what to do.
since last wk, ive been feeling light and floaty. the count down started at the beginning of the year. then ZOOOOOM! BHAM!
its the end of the year liao. and just a mere 48 hours to ultimate EMANCIPATION.
haha. act i dont rreally know how to use this word. but i like. it sounds so cute. haha.
everysince emancipation of mimi came out, i just lovvve seeing the word.
but no. i dont like her. she looks freaky to me. =S

anyway, back to the topic. this a levels have been quite a horrific experience and never in my life will i want to go bck and do it again. EVER.
even if i fail. NO WAY.
BUT obviously i hope i wont fail. and im praying with all my heart that i will do well.
well enough to make my parents happy. well enough to glorify God.
cos it is DEFINITELY NONE OF MY EFFORTS BUT ALL OF GOD"S considering how 'un-diligent' and naughty i was. =C

haha. ALOT to expect for considering how crappy almost EVERY paper has been.
but. nevertheless. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR HIM.
WHEN I'M WEAK, HE IS STRONG!! =D
so dear Lord, in the mean time, pls help me to learn how to cast all my burdens unto you for i know that you will bless me according to the glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
thank you for picking me up time and time and time and time again cos this a's really took a huge toll on me.
because ive been spending the time worrying needlessly instead.
dear lord, i know that despite all my futile efforts in worrying and not leaning on the solid rock instead, you still love and care so much for me, more than i can ever imagine.
indeed. why worry when even all the pretty flowers have pretty petals to wear. he cares even for all the flowers, the birds. all the more will he care for his children.

God is not a man, that He should lie, Nor a son of man, that He should repent; Has He said, and will He not do it? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good? Numbers 23:19

Thank God for choosing me to be your child.
i can never thank you enough. =D

  Saturday, September 22, 2007

ahh. the day we long awaited has finally arrived.
its the last day of our loong loong prelims.
no more studying for the time being.
as usual the feeling of elation always died down as the day comes.
but this time, its quite bad i guessed.
really regret what i did this wk. hai. =C
3 movies and books. horrors ah.
this shal NOT be the case anymore. hope this i wont regret what ive done when my results come back.
bio today was esp disappointing cos i didnt even know the content questions. and that sucks when the rest are worse.
hai. but nvm.
its all over. i think i need the peace more than ever.
but God is always with me. MUST REMEMBER. in happy and sad times.

anyway, to jm, tiff, xiaoying, shushan and all taking h3. JIAYOU!! 3 more days only before you all OWN the paper. =D
then i can get my treat. lol.

till then. its MENG WATCH. MENG SHOP. MENG SLACK. =D =D =D

  Tuesday, September 18, 2007

ok. im so bored that i re-read all my old post.
-_-
and i feel so DUMB.
almost all my sentences end in exclamation marks.
like some overexcited kid.
-_- omgosh. when i will i grow up and write sensibly.
0_0 but i guess at least i can hear myself saying all those things that i wrote.
literally writing down my thoughts..

ohwell. dumb thing to comment about.
hopefully my kiddy ways really shows that there is a happy kid in me. =D

anyway,, chem tmr. 3rd last paper. =D
haha. shall try to stop putting exclamation marks for awhile. lest my online persona suffer from over excitement. -_-
so yes.. the feeling is ohh soo good. =)
finished reading two books which were really good. feels so relieving when i can finally sit back and really relax and enjoy my reading.
notes stood aside for awhile. but have to come back this afternoon.
i think i have been deluded since last year that i understood what i was doing.
cos apparently. i dont. =S
BUT nvm. i still got ONE afternoon!
hmm. yes. optimism is the fuel to success.
haha. thats what saint Esther said.
and may it be true.

-_-

im the last person to be saintly. im the most unworthy. but he still chose me.
=D=D=D

 

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